Self-Confidence and Determination are the most beautiful and important things I put on in the morning…..without them i leave myself NAKED AND EXPOSED for the world to cover me with Uncertainty and Failure….I envision this blog being as RANDOM as I am….ENJOY!!!!Tumblr (3.0; @jaymeeshane)http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/“Complete self-awareness is the one thing I have not truly sought after in life. It seems every time that I am on the verge of being definitive about an area in my life, I instantly begin to resist. Yes, I know what my favorite color is and what songs/movies bring me to tears. But my question to myself is WHY is this the case? What elements within myself intermingle to aid in my making these decisions about the little things in life? Instead of taking the indirect route of deleting FB friends, blocking numbers, ignoring text messages and more or less blaming others for my lack of awareness, I will begin to seek answers in ME.”http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/33240748004http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/33240748004Tue, 09 Oct 2012 14:11:26 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mbn01rQRcD1qb26nio1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>How often am I so prepared to give advice to other about their relationships? How often do I stand in judgement of the other women and the decision they make in their relationships? Reality shows constantly show images of “bad bitches” or “weak girls”. Characters like “Clair Huxtable” are non-existence. A dedicated, educated, and strong woman is something that I am. But at the same time, I do have moments of weakness which is inevitable in the life of any human being. While we stand in judgement of the “Joseline’s”, ” Mi Mi’s”, “16 and Pregnant” girls, or “Nicki Minaj’s”, how often do we really take the time reevaluate ourselves and truly see that just like they are flawed, we are too. Standing at the entrance of a new era in my life, I have quite a few major moves to make. There is nothing standing in my way but myself and my emotions. I will not stand in denial and believe that change will occur overnight because it will not. I have growing up to do within myself.</p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/33239570559http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/33239570559Tue, 09 Oct 2012 13:46:39 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mbmyc7mre61qb26nio1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>I need this in my life ASAP!!!!</p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/33237823761http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/33237823761Tue, 09 Oct 2012 13:09:42 -0400““Moving down the streams of my lifetime <br/> Pulls the fascination in my sleeve <br/> Cooling off the fire of my longing <br/> Boiling off my cold within his heat <br/> Melting down the walls of inhibition <br/> Evaporating all of my fears <br/> Baptizing me into complete submission <br/> Dissolving my condition with his tears “”<br/><br/> - <em>Lauryn Hill “Just Like Water”</em>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/33218444219http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/33218444219Tue, 09 Oct 2012 01:39:23 -0400<p>A week ago, I was so overcome with continuous thoughts of you and your kisses. I wanted nothing more than to be with you in that moment and always. The laughs we shared were countless and the butterflies you gave me were exhilarating. I couldn&#8217;t have been happier&#8230;..or so I thought.</p> <p>I&#8217;ve come to realize that the things that we grasp so tightly to are also the things that we are often required to release ourselves from in life. I want nothing more than to be loved completely and sincerely. In a world of so much hate for each other and ourselves, how do we manifest something that seems to be obsolete. The love that I have in my heart is almost endless. My mother always told me that I had too many soul ties and she&#8217;s never wrong. My compassion for other people extends to places that even I, myself do not understand at times. As much as I try to be angry, hate, and cut people off&#8230;.I just can not do it. I just continue to LOVE LOVE LOVE. This reality is truly my biggest weakness and greatest strength. At this point in my life, I have begun to accept the reality that I may NEVER meet another person that loves me as much as I love them. This is a harsh fact but a REAL fact. Love like the kind that I feel in my heart is very rare in the society that we live in today. All I want is to have the ability to convince a good man that I will not hurt him. I want to take care of a man eternally and finally receive that in return. I just want to not have my love taken advantage of in a relationship.  I do not love for the benefits that some say it holds or for the sexual satisfaction, that numerous people seek everyday. I love because I know how beautiful love is at its purest form. Pure love is my drug of choice and it courses through my every vein. I just want my next fix and I pray that my veins do not ever run dry of it.</p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/33218149585http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/33218149585Tue, 09 Oct 2012 01:31:36 -0400“That also goes for people who like to state the obvious. Again….everyone isn’t as stupid as you.”http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/24030742143http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/24030742143Tue, 29 May 2012 20:31:26 -0400“I hate when people give extremely detailed directions. Everyone isn’t as stupid as you.”http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/24030717234http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/24030717234Tue, 29 May 2012 20:31:07 -0400<iframe width="400" height="300" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/1kc904n-gyI?wmode=transparent&autohide=1&egm=0&hd=1&iv_load_policy=3&modestbranding=1&rel=0&showinfo=0&showsearch=0" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe><br/><br/><p>This song is such an encouragement…..Glory be to God :)</p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/22266126860http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/22266126860Wed, 02 May 2012 14:53:55 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m3cpusOwbP1qb26nio1_500.gif"/><br/><br/><p><span class="Apple-style-span">Considering all the lip products that I own, the fact that $1 Carmex looks the best kinda makes me sick lol….</span></p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/22196536527http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/22196536527Tue, 01 May 2012 12:01:40 -0400<iframe width="400" height="300" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/1Nb5lWJIby8?wmode=transparent&autohide=1&egm=0&hd=1&iv_load_policy=3&modestbranding=1&rel=0&showinfo=0&showsearch=0" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe><br/><br/><p>This is such a beautiful song…..</p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/22189634057http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/22189634057Tue, 01 May 2012 08:43:41 -0400<p><span class="Apple-style-span">Dear Lord,<br/><br/>I didn&#8217;t want to get s*** faced or drunk off my a** for my 21st birthday. I wasn&#8217;t gonna embarrass you. I just wanted one little martini or margarita (preferably one from Firebirds) and that won&#8217;t even be happening. #disappointed<br/><br/>Sincerely, A faithful follower</span></p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/22176505573http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/22176505573Tue, 01 May 2012 00:37:59 -0400“Confession: I don’t understand men that think it is fair for them to be sexually promiscuous and then want a conservative woman. I understand why a sexually conservative woman is more desirable than a slut but conduct yourself in a manner that deserves such a woman. Does that woman deserve the leftovers of ALL the women you slept with over the years? (Because that is what you are…leftovers) No. So get your stuff together before you come at me. Please and Thank You.”http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/22139467301http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/22139467301Mon, 30 Apr 2012 16:15:40 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m2z4havw9I1qanmtho1_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/><img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m2z4havw9I1qanmtho2_500.jpg"/><br/> <br/>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21955604662http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21955604662Fri, 27 Apr 2012 23:18:17 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m33yy8TlXj1qb26nio1_400.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><span class="Apple-style-span">Confession: I have a hard time telling how old people are….Everyone between the ages of 22 and 35 looks the same to me. So unless you are extremely old or extremely young, I just assume you’re like 25 lol</span></p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21873986786http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21873986786Thu, 26 Apr 2012 18:39:44 -0400<img src="http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m33x2wCiGR1qb26nio1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p>You bought a $250 coffee maker and now want to know if you can buy the coffee with your food stamps…..I just don’t understand</p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21871106513http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21871106513Thu, 26 Apr 2012 17:59:20 -0400<img src="http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m33w93Dw8f1qb26nio1_500.jpg"/><br/><br/><p><span class="Apple-style-span">Sometimes I’m too critical so maybe someone can explain to me why this customer just walked out into the rain to get an umbrella……</span></p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21869848508http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21869848508Thu, 26 Apr 2012 17:41:27 -0400<p><span class="Apple-style-span">Today I received a text from my father that said &#8220;I found someone who really loves you&#8230;.ME&#8221; Needless to say, I couldn&#8217;t stop smiling after that. Being loved is an amazing feeling and I&#8217;ve been so blessed to have TWO of the greatest fathers in this world&#8230;.God and James A. Williamson. Everyone can experience the incredible sensation that is a father&#8217;s love. Whether it be from your heavenly father or your earthly father, know that you are LOVED unconditionally. You don&#8217;t have to buy this love or have sex for this love. It is a gift that we all have been given by God&#8230;..</span></p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21868497912http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21868497912Thu, 26 Apr 2012 17:22:13 -0400<p><a class="tumblr_blog" href="http://mylifeonacoffeesleeve.tumblr.com/post/21367697838/when-my-professor-asks-if-i-did-the-reading">mylifeonacoffeesleeve</a>:</p> <blockquote> <p><img src="http://media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m2l0bhSsBW1rnilt8.gif"/></p> </blockquote>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21745265821http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/21745265821Tue, 24 Apr 2012 19:34:34 -0400<p>I can do whatever I want. I can be whatever I want to be. So I&#8217;m about to change&#8230;.for real this time.</p>http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/14488656319http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/14488656319Mon, 19 Dec 2011 21:27:07 -0500“Confession: It’s sad that sometimes my friends love me more than I do…..”http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/14488472686http://jaymeeshane.tumblr.com/post/14488472686Mon, 19 Dec 2011 21:23:47 -0500