A week ago, I was so overcome with continuous thoughts of you and your kisses. I wanted nothing more than to be with you in that moment and always. The laughs we shared were countless and the butterflies you gave me were exhilarating. I couldn’t have been happier…..or so I thought.
I’ve come to realize that the things that we grasp so tightly to are also the things that we are often required to release ourselves from in life. I want nothing more than to be loved completely and sincerely. In a world of so much hate for each other and ourselves, how do we manifest something that seems to be obsolete. The love that I have in my heart is almost endless. My mother always told me that I had too many soul ties and she’s never wrong. My compassion for other people extends to places that even I, myself do not understand at times. As much as I try to be angry, hate, and cut people off….I just can not do it. I just continue to LOVE LOVE LOVE. This reality is truly my biggest weakness and greatest strength. At this point in my life, I have begun to accept the reality that I may NEVER meet another person that loves me as much as I love them. This is a harsh fact but a REAL fact. Love like the kind that I feel in my heart is very rare in the society that we live in today. All I want is to have the ability to convince a good man that I will not hurt him. I want to take care of a man eternally and finally receive that in return. I just want to not have my love taken advantage of in a relationship. I do not love for the benefits that some say it holds or for the sexual satisfaction, that numerous people seek everyday. I love because I know how beautiful love is at its purest form. Pure love is my drug of choice and it courses through my every vein. I just want my next fix and I pray that my veins do not ever run dry of it.